Monday Musings (It's Tuesday...little late!)

Powerstealers. The people who you care about enough to let into your inner circle of trust and they take that trust and smash it into the ground. The people who empower themselves by hurting you, by zinging you with their sly ways, their over-powering negativity. The people who you want so badly to stand up to, but at the same time desperately don't want to hurt....yeah THOSE people.

It saddens me that they even exist, most especially exist in our inner circle....but they do. We spend our time saying to ourselves, to anyone who will hear us "Why would they do this to me?....I would never treat them this way....I never did anything to them...". The fact is that that is the first step to taking your power back from them. These people will do this whether you deserve it out not. Sometimes I will look at the person who shall not be named, but does this to me on a regular basis....I will look at them and see the glee in their eyes, the power swelling so much within in them, my power.....that they took! That I allowed them to take by feeling sorry for myself and not putting my foot down. Put your foot DOWN! You can gently put it down, you can glide that foot to the floor ever so softly or you can stamp that sucker down. But put your foot down. I know its hard. I know that if you are in an entire room of people you will be the bitch, pretty much the bad guy in this situation and that sucks, but you have to ask yourself what is more important to you? Don't fool yourself into thinking that they don't know what they are doing....they do. You ain't the first person they are doing this too and you will not be the last. And dude the other people in the room...pffft! if they think badly of you then they are just as bad. They are powerstealers too. Perhaps not in the same way, but as you are standing your ground they are trying to siphon off of you by making you feel like crap.

The other day I didn't put my foot down and I was mad. Mad at them, mad at the most important person in my world, but most importantly I was mad at myself. Disgusted with myself. Sadden by MYSELF. I allowed it to happen, allowed the situation to steamroll and for more of my power to be stolen. I feared escalating the situation, I feared being the bitch. I feared taking a stand and saying "No! You Shall Not Pass!!". I know with past experiences that I will spend the day saying I should have done this, done that....either way whether I would have said something or not I would have spent the day doing just that. At least I would have had some self-respect, at least I would still have my power. At least my truth would have been spoken. Let's face it whether right or wrong to other people our truth is important and powerful!

Unfortunately I have come to the conclusion that if you are going to be a powerstealing bitch than you are going to get hurt by the people you try to take from. We all have those protective prickles...use em. Even if it's just a little at a time. And I will be using my prickles next time. And I hope they hurt....like a bitch.

Peace and Love
The Bone Witch